Sometimes we’ve experienced something in our youth that made us feel really really bad. We were deeply hurt by something Something made us feel disappointed, something made us feel good But then someone else used that to hurt us So a way for us to cope with all of this was by not feeling anything We learned that at the core, feelings and emotions are not safe When we receive compliments, we brush them away We can’t really fully accept them or believe in them And when we hear something insulting, we try our best to just ignore it Try not to stand up for yourself or not get involved, whether something is positive or negative It needs to be suppressed Apathy is struggling to feel or express emotion. It’s not so much that… You can never feel anything, but mostly you don’t feel anything It’s a blank state of being; you know, you have to do something today But you also don’t feel like doing it But you also don’t feel like doing anything else and everyday, it tears at you until eventually you start to question, Why did I want to do this to begin with? Feeling is not just emotion, but also a way for us to guide ourselves How do we decide on what we want to do today? How do we find what we genuinely enjoy? That is why when we start to suppress feeling, we start to feel like something about us is broken When we are emotionless, we feel confused. Like we don’t really know ourselves. We feel directionless, That we have no plan for anything to do because we don’t want to do anything anyway And we feel hopeless but in the end nothing will really turn out good anyway If we were to decide to reject apathy It wouldn’t be that we suddenly believe everything has to be positive that the goal is to always be happy and that no matter what, Everything will work out in the end it’s recognizing that both good things and bad things happen and it’s because of that, that we can take action. If we decide to feel again, we might have a lot of doubts We might fear that things will swing too far and that our feelings will become, OVERBEARING and now instead we are completely driven by emotion But it’s not something we have to fear, because what we’re really teaching ourselves is that we can TRUST ourselves We might also fear that feelings and emotions are illogical but it goes against all logic and reason but Really? We’re only using our feelings to guide ourselves To not feel ashamed of what we want or what to achieve or when we fail to get there to let us be ourselves and engage with others to have needs again and the willingness to go after them to not distract ourselves by Indulging in passivity and not get addicted to things to distract us. To get out of apathy we don’t need one big step. It’s not laying everything out there and saying here are all my problems in life Here are all my issues. Go ahead have a look. It’s all in the small steps. When we feel positive we embrace it. We don’t tell ourselves We’re not worthy of feeling good That we have other things to deal with before we’re even allowed to feel good. That the past and future has to dictate how we’re feeling right now. It’s accepting sadness, that it’s fine to be sad It’s not inherently a bad thing to feel but knowing that we won’t feel this way forever, that we don’t need the rumination and added distress of constant bad thoughts about how bad things are for us It’s necessary for us to feel sadness so that we can take some time to reflect and then take action from it. It’s all just small steps It can work like this telling people in very simple ways how you feel This is how I feel right now. I feel sad or I feel happy or even gratitude. I am glad you did this for me. When we talk to others It’s fine to indulge in more emotion than we might usually To laugh and smile and focus on what they are actually talking about, to maybe hang out with friends or watch a movie or play a video game simply to indulge emotionally. It’s being able to have a sense of direction in your life and not care if someone else were to judge you for it Instead you’re just feeling again, and it’s a process and slowly you might start to remember Oh, yeah, this is what I wanted out of life You

Comments (100)

  1. 1000th comment here

  2. I liked this video, I think

  3. how did youtube know that i needed this rn

  4. 3:38 The combination of fading video colors and the seeing-spots imprint makes for a really cool effect c:

  5. thank you, I really needed to hear this. I'm really glad this kept popping up on my recommended videos : )

  6. What tf is this YouTube algorithm…. WHY DOES IT KEEP SHOWING ME THINGS IM GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW. But anyways thank you for this 🙂

  7. Ngl thought that was Napstablook in the thumbnail

  8. “I like food.”
    “Consuming sustenance is for idiots.”


  10. I really needed this <3
    Thank you

  11. Damn, this hit too close for comfort

  12. This is too real…I started crying by the end of the video.
    I used to be really apathetic and I thought that there was no purpose for my life. I was also kinda suicidal too…
    I'm so happy I learned to feel emotions again and I'm finally not confused and apathetic. I'm actually someone with a personality and emotions of my own.

  13. the 89 people who disliked the video are poopy lol

  14. I think that just might be a few of yall

  15. How does youtube know I’m depressed

  16. And that's why The Cybermen were created!

  17. Thank you emo tampon

  18. Why do you sorta sound like Pewdiepie

  19. This really got recommended to me at the right time

  20. i'm in this video and i don't like it

  21. Thanks for the great video, really touched me!

  22. 2:57

  23. iM 14 aNd ThIs iS DeEp

  24. Dude why are all your videos so good

  25. Dang I learn so much more from your videos, thanks so much Mattias.

  26. I really needed this right now thank you

  27. This video came on my room and punched me in the face and I'm not okay with it.

    Take my fucking like, sir.

  28. I'm close to crying I don't know what it is stop it peepee head

  29. this is what i've been thinking of all day
    it's a good reminder

  30. I feel like I just got a psychology lesson
    I feel like I'm getting taught to keep my inner peace and to stay chill
    I feel like I should question myself why I clicked on this
    I think I said too much
    I'll go to sleep now

  31. I think my whole life just got explained in 5 minutes. (Except for the solution part-)

  32. It is not easy to find someone who u can trust to talk about u.
    Noone realy care about u
    And even if i find someone to talk i cry the shit out that even mumbling gets hard… no one likes to b around someone that dark inside out…
    Its easy to make a video how i should feel.
    Come live my life u will understand even though u have everything loving parents good grade at school warm bed good food how it feel to b blank

  33. please tell me i’m not the only one who thinks this looks like the shedding guy from the dsi flipnote premade animations???

  34. For a long time, all I could feel was empty. I was just stuck in my head all day, nothing really phased me. I never really noticed it, until I realized how much a dreaded every single day, how every day was the same. Every day, I still felt nothing. In relationships, I’d only let them in enough about me that they thought they knew everything. But they’d know virtually nothing, just a few trivial stories about me as a kid or how I sleep with my feet outside the covers. They didn’t know me, and then they’d fall in love with me. But I knew them, and I knew I couldn’t feel the same because I couldn’t feel anything at all.

    And now, I actually feel something towards another person. I actually have an opinion on how my day went. But I can’t stand this new vulnerability. It’s wonderful to feel anything but numb. But who am I now? I got so used to the hard shell with an empty interior, now I’m soft inside and out and I can’t help but feel like a fraud. The person I feel something towards, they were the shift that made me soft- but what if I revert back? Am I being genuine? I can’t even tell what genuine is for me anymore. I don’t know if I’m really feeling anything, or if I’m pretending as a way to cope from not being able to handle the numbness anymore. Idk why I’m using YouTube as my shrink.

  35. This is inconsequential but I really appreciate that color scheme of black being used to represent the good

  36. Thats just depression

  37. From when I was 10 until about 12 or 13 I didnt feel any emotion at all. I dont know how or why it started, I just realized it one day when something happened that should have made me sad and I didnt react at all. My emotions came back when a friend pointed out I had a crush on someone and when I realized I felt that one emotion, they all came crashing back. But I lost the ability to differentiate between them and after almost 10 years I'm still figuring out what names to put to what feelings some days.
    The worst of it was when everything I had suppressed for years hit overnight and I went from robotic straight to intensely depressed and in so much emotional pain that it physically hurt. If you can work your way to healthy emotions slowly it's best you do, because everything at once is far too much for anyone to handle

  38. I think I feel personally attacked

  39. Thank you I feel better now

  40. You know what? I'm gonna watch a bit Netflix. Don't get me wrong, I haven't in a while.

    I never have the energy to do it.

  41. I can't feel but if I could I would say that this made me happy

  42. I wish my ex-friend could see some of your videos to understand.
    I tried my best to talk with him this kind of way, but he always swiped it over with words "You're just a kid that doesn't understand how things work. Stupid dreams." He was only 3 years older… And to be honest, his negativity and these kinds of thoughts did affect me. I could not feel anything without being afraid he'd judge me for it. I didn't realize that his opinion was wrong, instead I let it affect me because I blindly thought "He's older… He understands."
    Even after what he had done to me, how he made me feel and how he picked up every bad thing on me and then self-pitied himself for being and idiot, I'd still love him to see this video. And I hope he will.
    Thank you, it did help a lot.

  43. I've struggled with showing emotions ever since my grandfather passed (2016) and I was 13-14 at the time. I couldn't feel a thing after then, everything just felt like a blank piece of paper and nothing seemed to matter. Emotions seemed like irrational constructs and desires made me feel like I was being an irrational, weak person and that feelings are weak and this apathy just kills me.

  44. Wow… this feels like you are describing the past few years of my life

  45. Thank you so much for making this video. I didn’t know your channel because I got here by acident. And it was so helpful. You helped me to see hope in 5 minutes. I wish the very best for you.

  46. Sometimes you know you're feeling something, but you don't know what. It's nice that I found a video that explained to me what I was feeling and now I have a name for it. I also now have a way, some advice, on how to stop feeling that. Thank you.

  47. i really needed this after today. thank you.

  48. Thts 1 thoughtful tampon!

  49. In my very own opinion, I think that you don’t need to have a reason or reasons for every single feeling! For an example, (and probably the most common one) being sad, sometimes you just are and there’s nothing you can say to explain why! I mean as long as you can find something or be with someone that makes you a tiny bit happier than you were just then!
    On the other hand, I absolutely loved the video! Most creative and I really needed this, thank you!

  50. «That the past and future has to dictate what we are feeling right now» I felt that

  51. I used to be like this. now I'm passing on the importance of these ideas to someone I love :')

  52. Who in the WORLD STOLE MY DIARY???

  53. Omg this almost made me cry thank you

  54. Dang, I thought this was gonna be a goofy animation or something. I didn't expect it to be such a relevant life lesson for me.

  55. Why has this been me since childhood?

  56. Thank you…that's all I can say!

  57. I feel this right now.

  58. Me watching this with a very bad apathy problems: hmmm maybe the tampon is right

    My self hate and self inflicted stress and trauma: nOpE

  59. oh fuck

    this? this. this is me i think.

  60. I've had this problem of not feeling anything for a few years because before that i had many years of only feeling bad feelings.
    It felt good to not feel bad for a while, but eventually I started to question what i'm doing with my life,
    I didn't have any dreams or goals I wanted to work towards. Everything just felt empty and I didn't want to do anything.
    Now I'd say since a year or so, I noticed that feelings are coming back, it's not a 100% back.
    But I'm starting to feel passion and dreams again. Things I'd like to achieve in life.
    It feels so good to feel.

  61. Thank you, this helped me a lot with dealing with my parents

  62. I see this video a lot, is like my bible

  63. i don't like it when you stop the background music when shit gets deep like i was chilling

  64. these were probably the 5 most valid minutes I’ve spent on the internet. thank you.

  65. For once, YouTube Recommendations worked properly. Thanks for this video!

  66. This is why i hate when teachers want me to make life goals

  67. Joke’s on you, as a Child instead of weaponizing my emotions, my Teachers weaponized my occasional lack of emotion and now today I constantly worry about everything because if I cause problems for others through any form of ignorance no matter how insignificant I am bad and I will be punished and now any form of drama causes ptsd attacks and I can’t watch tv.

  68. "Positive or negative it is suppressed."

    🔵 I am in this photo and I don't like it

  69. Being a grey man is a great defense mechanism. But it hurts in the long run.

  70. I do voice the things that i feel, it's just nobody cares

  71. Hey thank you… i think i needed this!

  72. Thanks bud. You've really helped me out with this

  73. Thanks bud. You've really helped me out with this

  74. Thanks bud. You've really helped me out with this

  75. I dearly want to enjoy things again. I was recently diagnosed with a deviated septum, which is causing inflamed sinuses and pressure on my brain. I have a headache everyday and almost nothing is enjoyable because of it.

    Those feelings of not truly knowing myself, being unable to reason my way into action, feeling like things are worthless are things I’ve been struggling with ever since this issue became apparent.

    Thank you for reminding me that I’m not alone in feeling like this.

  76. This actually taught me something so basic that I feel like I should have learned as a child. Not as a 23 year old man lmao. It's okay to feel what you feel. If you feel bad do something about it, dont just push it down and hide it

  77. I really needed this right now.

  78. I know this comment doesn’t mean much but, this video had done so much for me. When I’ve gotten into a state of stress or confusion about my life this video helped me just that little bit to pull me back. I keep it saved just in case I ever fall back into that just so I have something to help me get back up. It can be hard sometimes. But I just wanted to say, thank you.

  79. Adoro seus vídeos, eles são simples e de uma certa forma, incríveis! Sinceramente, agradeço ao cara que legenda em pt Br esses vídeos tão legais!:') S2 por sinal, eu invejo o timbre da sua voz.

  80. When you don't know if you should be happy or sad to have this recommended by YouTube
    Kinda both

  81. The character reminds me of punpun

  82. That last sentence: and slowly you start to remember “oh this is what i wanted from life”
    This last sentence really made me tear up because I’m at that stage of healing where I’m starting to remember that this is what i wanted, i started to feel passionate again about the things i always enjoyed and wanted to do, it feels like coming back to your old house and finding that everything is the same (in a good way).
    This video is really amazing and very accurate i think many people can relate, thank you really!

  83. colors are so soft they almost hug me

  84. I have reached the 1,000 videos mark on my Watch Later list.
    And I've decided I'm going to delete them all… and take a break from youtube. But before that, I scrolled to the very beginning and found this, the 15th video on my playlist, and I decided to make it my last video (outside of, of course).
    I'm glad I did.
    Youtube has always been where I've gone when I wanted to stop thinking and simply stare at a screen. It can take hours or days of my time, and I won't even notice the sun has set and risen again until I check the date. So now, I think it's time I say goodbye to all my favorite YouTubers and everything they create, the occasionally repetitive but hilarious commenters, and the algorithm that doesn't want me to leave to even use the bathroom.

    See you guys later.

  85. i felt like you took this video right from my head

  86. Michael Jackson: it's black, it white. HE HEE

  87. Thank you, this video made me understand myself and my emotions better. I needed this so much. I finally found the answer.

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