Frankie I go to Hillsong New Jersey. I grew up in West Orange New Jersey. I lived in a business oriented family. I knew this plus this equals success and I was willing to take any shortcut around that. I got a phone call from a friend saying use gambling and having a having some fun. I remember the first week getting super compulsive with it. And I remember blowing through what was my savings at the time. Within two weeks I loved it and I loved doing it just because it fed my addiction and my addiction was it was gambling and it just took me
away from academics completely. I had no focus for anything the biggest trap with gambling is losing money you don’t have because once you get into that rabbit hole you’re
willing to do whatever. And that’s kind of where my life took a turn. I have biggest better my wife and I lost 25 grand. I went nuts. I end up going to drink on my own. I blacked out bought lottery tickets. I scratched them in the bodega claimed I won a million dollars. Turns out I didn’t. I destroyed the bodega I hung around. Cops came I got aggressive with the cops and they put me in jail once they came to the reality that this wasn’t a nightmare. This is actually what I did. I just had a breakdown. All the truth coming out at once destroyed me. People cut me out of their life instantly. I don’t know how to deal with it. So when I got home I grabbed a handful of fat pills. I drove up up the street real woody area and I was at peace. I was like so ready to be done. Parents found me in in the woods and they rushed me home. More sound medical center. They diagnosed me with a couple of mental health disorders and they put me in a psych ward where I went on to spend ten days I was on the
phone my mom after like two days and I just like out like I don’t know what to do in here. Can you just bring me a book and the one in the book that is tattooed in my brain is just society will judge what you’ve done and God cares
about what you can become. And I melted and that’s when I gave my life to Christ. This is the first time I heard the words like grace and forgiveness. Those were two words completely freed me of who I was. And it was it was then when he shared hey no actually the thorns in your side so you surrender to me. I felt like God was telling me your stories not for you it’s it’s for me just celebrated a year sober on September 15 changes of behavior
the changes in my thoughts the changes in my wife didn’t happen overnight but because of the people God put in front of me have really slowly shaped me into the man that I’m becoming.